yo! sooo. where should i start? hmm..

welll. it's been awhile. actually it's been like forever since i did a proper journal. and i totally forgot how things work in here, knowing that there's a lot of changes with the da formats and widgets these recent months/years. i kinda feel stupid not seeing the 'write a journal entry' button and the mood options right away. i even almost couldn't remember my da password. shame haha
it's also so embarrassing how i kept promising some updates in my last few journal entries some yeaarss ago anywee. im back! really! -im back. and i hope it'll stay that way. for now lol. and i do have some-some new works to post atleast but i won't say anything yet. cuz things could get filled up and get twisted again. it is just so mysterious you know -fate

first off, of course, i would like to say a many-a big Thank You to all! -for the continues views and the faves and features and comments! really guys and girls. i truly appreciate them. and sorry that i couldn't get to them and reply back fast. but it's really nice that i still see some viewers of my works every time i get the chance to visit here, despite the obvious lack of real updates
and  i guess i needed some changes around. and i really miss da. i just saw that i've been a deviant for five years now ohoo. time really flies~
so they've been asking -where i gone to and why i somehow became idle here. honestly, i don't really have an exact answer to that. i just didn't made such a big deal of it. but it was for no dramatic reason really, i guess i've just been busy with the other sides of my life, they're still art-related thou; there's animation, some cosplay and school kicks in from time to time. so it's not like i died or something, i often browse through da still if ever time or mood permits it. it doesn't even leave my tabs.
if there was a real reason, i don't really remember what it was and it won't really matter now -as things evolve aggressively as we know it, without us needed noticing every details. and just so people know, i just got a bit more active in other art sites, joining challenges and that hardcore stuffs, you'd see some results in my gallery btw. i also put up an online sketchbook thread at cghub _{(thou that one needs some dusting too)} and an art blog, just so recently, it's where i put my latest sketches and illustrations -so if it's not here, it'd be most likely there. if some are still interested, it's my tsadism blog

and. about four weeks ago or maybe more than a month now, something really terrible happened. yes it finally happened, just as it does to other people. my computer died on me. it was a big fat juicy enormous disk failure! i tried everything. all failed. virus? -no. i'm not an expert, sure. but that just wasn't the cause. i hope it was at least or there would still be a way around it pffft. it totally came to that hardest part where i had to clean it, and then pressed 'enter'. and save those that can be saved and start anew. it felt like i killed someone _{-not that i know how that feels} lol. or like a part of me died too like someone really dear to me just passed away -and that can be the most hurtful thing. but then, reality as it is, life can be harsh.
honestly, at first, it didn't bother me much. because all i could think about that day was to fix it. but now that things sort of settled, and as i work on new stuffs, those deceased files haunt me down one by one
so yeah, all six years worth of works, are forever gone. let me repeat that, 'are forever gone'. and before anything else, if you know me, you'd know i put an occasional backup of my stuffs. but for some universal collision. as stars might've lined up, this time thou, i didn't get to. last backup i have is pretty old. and a great amount of cool raw psd, animation, music, stocks are forever gone -yeah i really need to get that in my system now haha.

i can't help but think that, that was meant to happen. i often believe that 'things do happen for a reason' or something like that. i still can't say what good that did to me, as of the whole part, except that i'm currently having a healthy zeal to produce new works. thou my bros ridiculously jest me to have a change of career -haha that's like next to impossible. but really, i got no choice but to live with it now, move forward and reach self-actuality. heck! i got nothing to lose! -im on to new horizons and more works!

you know. that alone was pretty heavy to take, but that wasn't just it. off a long course, as this depressing event was taking place on me, came the passing of two world-known great artists; Ralph McQuarrie and Jean Giraud aka Moebius. these guys are two of the most influential and inspirational artists of our time. some even dubbed sir Ralph as the godfather of concept + developmental art for entertainment. and sir Moebius, i always believe that people knew him more than they thought they do, or don't, even those out of the comic scopes. cuz once you told them about his works, they'd always go "ahh, oh yeah! " -it's sad, yes. them are always two of the best artists that i've always wanted to meet, and shake hands with someday. and that's not gonna happen now. but then, their legends will always be around us. and it's pretty late maybe, but i'll make sure to give tributes to them in my own ways, one of these days. hats off to sir Jean and Ralph. may they rest in peace.

but. what's more?! i just found out that Glen Keane resigned from Disney!... wow. that really stings, and stunned me a bit there. that made me remember all the works i've drooled seeing back when i was growing up. this great guy is one of the reasons why this kid from the southeastern have always wanted to be an animator! his works at Disney has always, always been inspiring.. but i guess, he ought to have some new freedom himself and some fresh air to breathe. it's an eye-weeper for me, but i'm also very interested to see what he'll do next in the future! weeh!

~hahaa that's a lot of words. i do hope you read it all down. and if you did. thanks! it is much appreciated!